Thu 28-May-09 (Return to Australia)

On the Wednesday evening we checked out and had wheelchair assistance all the way from arriving at the hotel until boarding the flight, with a bit of time in the Qantas lounge in between. I ran down to the duty free store to purchase some Eau de Toilette but was surprised at the prices (expensive, that is). Unfortunately I never got the chance in Sydney.

Not taking anything away from our trip to Hong Kong with El Al (Israel’s national carrier), we were far more comfortable on our Qantas flight because of the flat-beds, food and overall service. I barely slept, but got to see “Bolt” and “Hotel for Dogs” at the kids’ recommendation (I’m a child at heart). I was happy to have watched both.

Upon arrival in Sydney we had further wheelchair assistance from a Qantas staff member (Lydia), who escorted us all the way to the bus bound for the domestic terminal. Ben was very helpful with pushing one of the trolleys, while Gabi was quite exhausted and having trouble keeping pace at times. We were able to check on our carry-on luggage as we were going into a much smaller aircraft for the short flight. We had another ‘buggy’ take us from the domestic airport entrance to the gate.

In contrast to Hong Kong where most staff at the airport wore masks to protect themselves from “swine flu”, Australian Quarantine didn’t, but used temperature sensing devices and screens to monitor passenger movements and body temps.

After arriving at a quiet Canberra airport, we collected all luggage (quite a bit), which we managed to squeeze into our hire car. The drive home “on the other side of the road” was okay because we were following traffic most of the time.

It was strange to return to our house. Things seemed so much smaller. Not that we live in a small house, but after nearly two years in a reasonable sized three-level house, you can lose perspective.

The kids were excited to reacquaint themselves with the house. It was especially funny to see Gabi who has a lesser memory of this home.

Maria went to lie down and rest. As I had not accessed internet/email since leaving Israel, I checked the many emails but fell asleep in the process. The kids came in and out, with Gabi eventually giving up and having her own nap. I’m hoping that they quickly overcome any jetlag as we have a busy week or so ahead, starting with a visit to school tomorrow between recess and lunch to meet their respective classes. We also want them in a routine quickly as our specialists’ appointments here will commence on Monday and Maria will start her next cycle of chemo (6mths) on Friday.

The drive in the evening to get some takeaway was a bit trickier, as the roads were quiet, so I had to concentrate on ensuring I was on the correct side of the road. The kids enjoyed their kids meal from McDonalds. I think they have overdosed on junk food over the last two weeks!

Tue 26-May-09 (Disneyland)

Maria rested in the room all day and as we were gone for over nine hours (eight of those at the venue), she somehow managed to survive on one muesli bar from our mini-bar.

We started the day on the Space Mountain rollercoaster, which freaked them both out a bit. It was a blessing in disguise as everything after that paled in comparison.

The three of us had a great time and walked virtually non-stop for 8 hours (apart from when on rides, etc.). It was very strange to be doing this without Maria.

We not only loved the venue and attractions, but the Disneyland theme train to the venue on one of the MTR lines was so well done. We also could not help but notice no matter where we went that day, there was rarely a piece of rubbish ("trash" for my US friends) to be seen. A little different to what we've become accustomed to over the past couple of years!

A praise point was that we did not have one drop of rain while at Disneyland. I must have taken 200 photos and a number of videos of them, so I’ll keep the attached slideshow brief.

Mon 25-May-09 (arrive in Hong Kong)

We were caught in a massive traffic jam enroute to Ben Gurion Airport on Sunday night, which meant the kids and I were virtually running to get to the aircraft. Kathy, Mark and Dave did an awesome job getting us to the airport and helping us with luggage, etc. Fortunately Maria had a wheelchair, followed by ‘buggy’ to get to the gate.

The flight itself went reasonably okay, apart from turbulence because of weather in the Asia region. We all had some sleep. Even I had my longest sleep (3.5hrs) on a long-haul flight to date.

Maria didn’t seem so great when we got off the aircraft. While being escorted through the airport a staff member approached us and pointed a device at Maria’s head, which 'beeped'. At first I thought that perhaps during her operation the Israelis had inserted a monitoring chip into Maria’s head, but my conspiracy theory went up in smoke when he did the same to all of us and others in the immediate vicinity. As you’ve probably worked out by now, he was checking body our temperatures, due to the outbreak of “swine flu” across the world. Hong Kong has not really been affected to my understanding.

Finally we got to the hotel. Because of a hotel error with not being able to deliver on the confirmation of having interconnecting rooms, they upgraded us to ocean view rooms to get us closer (5 rooms apart). As it was pouring with rain, you couldn’t see much at all. We were told by hotel staff that we should expect the same weather for the remainder of our stay. All I could think of was the Disneyland trip I had planned for the following day.

The three of us had a swim that evening, followed by time in the Jacuzzi, steam and sauna rooms. I think the above helped their sleep as I struggled to get them out of bed in the morning for our Disneyland day-trip.

A picture tells a thousand words

Our dear friend Kathy C. stood in an adjacent street for ages and caught our attention with these signs (produced by her daughter Yvie) as we made the final dash enroute to Ben Gurion Airport. We share those feelings regarding our time in Israel...thanks Kathy (& Yvie).

Sun 24-May-09 (departing Israel)

I have prepared this entry in advance, so it should post around 6pm local time on Sunday while we are enroute to the airport. It's currently just after midnight here.

Just before 10pm local time we will be departing the land of milk and honey. We will have a two-night stopover before flying into Sydney and quickly connecting to Canberra. We will have wheelchair support at each airport to minimise Maria's need to walk long distances.

We have decided to withhold specific information on our flights as we do not wish to have anyone greet us at either Sydney or Canberra airports. We know some of you reading this and living in either city may find this difficult, but I know you will understand. It is going to be an exhausting trip, especially for Maria who will need to take additional steroids prior to ascent and descent on all flights because brain edema (swelling) seen in her recent CT scan. However, the doctors still cleared us to depart.

We will have little rest as the day after we hit Australian soil, Ben and Gabi will already visit school for a time to meet their new teachers and classmates/ Maria and I will be pretty much straight into specialists appointments and scans with the aim of Maria commencing her six month stint of chemotherapy on 5 June, four weeks from end of concomitant treatment as per international protocol.

We will need privacy and space while acclimatising to a new routine. I will keep the blog active (as soon as we get internet connected at home) to keep y'all posted on how we are progressing, when we feel we will be in a position to start seeing people, and how that will be coordinated. Consider me the family bouncer/doorman with much experience gained from nearly two years of living in Israel and being immersed in our current situation over the past three months.

We thank you in advance for respecting our privacy.

Fri 22-May-09 (last school day, send-off)

Today was the kids' school's 11th birthday party. It was an extremely warm day. The kids performed under a marquee in the playground, with Ben playing violin and Gabi singing.


It was an opportunity for Maria to see the teachers and parents, some who have been a massive blessing to us throughout this ordeal. It was yet again another emotional event for us.

Some of their art was on display, which was a pleasure to view. The unfortunate thing about attending events after having packed and uplifted is the accummulation of extra presents, which is what happened with the kids.

Below is a small video compilation of some of the photos taken on the day.

In the afternoon I left the kids with Maria while I went to a send-off lunch for my dear friend and colleague Trish (and her husband Steve). They depart the day after us and their time in Hong Kong will overlap with ours. It is strange to think in the very near future we will see them again, this time on Aussie soil.

Faith as Precious as Ours

I have been thinking of words to write that would succinctly describe our time and purpose of having been in Israel. I happened to be reading something this evening, which virtually mirrored my thoughts (albeit more articulate than I could ever be). I would like to share it with you.

Thomas and Cynthia Hale (surgeon nd pediatrician respectively) moved their family to Nepal in 1970 with the understanding that they would not be allowed to "proselytise" the Nepali people. Thomas wrote:

"Some may ask why we have come to Nepal if not to "proselytise" or "Christianise" the country. Our reason for coming, besides the fact that God called us here, is to communicate love to the Nepali people through our service and through our lives. we have come because God has given us a love for the people, especially for those suffering in body and spirit. This love does not arise from ourselves, it is a gift purely from God. Out of that love has grown a desire to introduce others to the person who has meant more to us than any other: Jesus Christ. To neglect sharing the our Nepali friends the joy of knowing him would make a pretense of our friendship. To withhold from them this greatest gift would be to no longer love them. And so it is not our religion that we desire to introduce to them but Jesus himself. There is no pressure, no enticement, no ulterior motive, no effort to undermine the many wonderful aspects of their own culture, which we not only admire but from which we have learned and profited. Rather we seek to work among the Nepali as friends and equals, contributing our professional skills where needed and involving ourselves as much as possible in their national aspirations. During the course of all this, it is perfectly natural for us to share with them, as occasions arise, our hearts' deepest feelings. They can take Christ or leave him; we shall serve them regardless."

Our family may not have contributed to the Israeli people as the Hales have to the Nepali. However, I would like to think that in our time here we were able to serve others (most importantly our Lord Jesus Christ) in a real way without placing pressure on people to come to know God. Although He desires (but not requires) to be in relationship with all of us, He gave us each 'free will' to make our own choice on this key life issue. Up until 2001, we had both made the choice to live life without God in the centre (for me without acknowledging His existence). Fortunately, Maria and I independently (and at different times) made the alternative decision, i.e. to acknowledge our sinful nature and accept God's free gift of His Son's (Jesus Christ) ultimate sacrifice to redeem us from serving sin and to serve Him instead.

In this current trial we've needed a solid rock, and He has been it! When I look back, I cannot imagine how I could have faced this situation with my self-reliant attitude. The only 'positive energy' in our lives now is God's Holy Spirit, the power by which God (the Father) and Jesus Christ (the Son) accomplish Their will on Earth. May His will be done.

Thu 21-May-09 (emotional evening)

Ben and Gabi finished their final sports lessons with surfing and tennis respectively.

We had a reasonably quiet day with a visit during the day from dear friends Ruthie and Antoinette. Maria worked for Ruthie here in Israel for some time and both would agree with me when I say they developed a very strong friendship. Maria will miss her days with Ruthie and I'm sure Ruthie feels the same way.

Having forewarning of a surprise (for Maria) visit of a small group of people to sing to the four of us, I tried all I could to delay our normal routine (while trying to make it look natural). Little did I know until after the event that Maria knew about it and was trying to do the same, thinking the surprise was for me.

Getting back to the evening...at 7pm there was a knock on the door and upon stepping out onto our front porch, we were greeted by a group of at least 50 vocalists and two chairs set up for us! The group comprised people from church, their friends, diplomats, spouses and their families. There was a large age range, from 3 up to ?? (I don't want to get it wrong so I won't even guess).

They sang for 15-20 minutes. It was a beautiful sound that resonated through the neighbourhood (great acoustics due to the number of large concrete houses around us).

The amount of time and effort that went into this event is difficult to imagine, but greatly appreciated. Thanks Sheila for your vision and organisation, and to Ken for leading. Solo performances from Molly and Bethany were inspirational. The overall harmony of a group of people from mixed backgrounds singing worship songs focused on our Lord blessed us immensely. Why? Because even though it was done "for us", it is "not about us". We are grateful that this was another opportunity where our situation, however difficult, could be used to glorify Him!

Feeling the need to express our gratitude, I tried to speak but was overcome with emotion. Not only is the realisation of leaving this special place becoming more apparent each day, but leaving very special people makes it that much more challenging...for me anyway.

Wed 20-May-09 (let the emotions begin)

Our cleaners, Smitha and Shilpa came over today. This may be the last time we see them before we leave, so it was quite emotional as Smitha has worked with us since we came to Israel. Shilpa started helping more recently as Smitha will be having a baby soon. Unfortunately we won’t be here for the birth. We at least got to give her something to welcome in the new member of her family.

We went to work to see everyone and took the kids with us. The morning tea put on was delicious. It was nice just to hang out and chat with colleagues in a relaxed atmosphere. There is so much I’ve learned since Maria’s illness and wish that I had my time over again at work as I would have approached the first few months of my job in a completely different way with more focus on relationship building, rather than just solely focused on the job at hand. I’m a slow learner! I wish them all the best and know that they are in good hands.

BTW, I got that photo of me in what was my office. I know it's difficult to see, but if you look at the photo just above my head, the bit of land jutting out to sea is the famous Jaffa. The tinted glass does not do the photo any justice. It's much better to see it with the naked eye.

Ben and Gabi were looked after with many treats. The sugar boost put Gabi into hyper-drive, keeping a few people on their toes trying to distract her when they had a spare moment (thanks Eyal, Debbie, Meital, Trish, Claudia, David). Ben was a little more subdued and happy to cruise around “exploring”. We were there for four hours, so by the time we headed home we had all hit a wall. Maria was feeling a bit more head pain in the car, which was exacerbated by the 70min drive home (compared to only 20mins coming in).

I was straight in and out the door again to collect Cashmere as she had provided us a gourmet Asian feast for dinner. As we had just come back from taking a whole heap of photos, I had my camera handy and took a shot, just to show everyone how spoilt and truly blessed we’ve been. Thanks to everyone who has provided us with a meal or snack at some stage. It has all been 5-star!

Tue 19-May-09 (a longgggggg day – final hospital meetings)

Gabi woke up vomiting. At first she seemed like she must be okay, but was sick again. Fortunately, Sharon came to the rescue and took Gabi into her care as we had a long day ahead with appointments at the hospital. Our last time there…hopefully.

Just before leaving Dr Harvey dropped over to deliver a much-needed letter to make our trip a smoother one, considering I’ll be carrying a ton of medicines with me. It was strange saying goodbye as Harvey is embarking on a work trip and will get back around the time we depart.

We got to the hospital at 09:00am for Maria’s blood test. That went well. We then went to meet our Neuro-oncologist. The file needed to be located as it had been stored somewhere else after the CT…a sign of things to come.

The meeting with the Neuro-oncologist went reasonably well. As we expected, there were no air pockets seen that may prevent Maria from travelling. She spoke a little about what else could be seen in the scan (although not detailed compared to an MRI) regarding the presence of tumour and edema. I should qualify this by saying that prior to the meeting we knew about “flare effect” that can be seen after radiation treatment, which they expected, but funnily both of us were caught us by surprise and left feeling a little flat.

We were prescribed more drugs, which we purchased to cover us for now, the upcoming trip and until we meet with specialists back home. During this time I got to catch up with my “friends” at Aroma Café. It was funny to say goodbye and also to the pharmacist who I had come to know because of the countless visits.

We had an appointment with the Neurosurgeon at 1:20pm. We waited near his office and as he walked past, he spoke with us and seemed surprised we were meeting. After a number of calls, etc. we ended up heading down to the outpatients’ clinic where we needed to meet with him. We were given a ticket and discovered there were 7 in front of us. Supposedly the average visit is 10mins. We had a meeting with the Radio-oncologist at 2:30pm “sharp’ (as he is flat out) and it approached there was a great deal of stress being felt, especially when I explained we needed to leave but would return, to which one of the young counter staff replied we had better. I kindly shared about our wait and our determination to finalise all appointments today. Unfortunately I could not mimic Arnold Schwarzenegger well enough to say “I’ll be back” in a way that may have broken the tension.

We made our way to the Radio-oncologist’s meeting and got there just before, to find he wasn’t there! By this stage, I kid you not that Maria had walked throughout the day a distance of probably 2km. She was exhausted and we were becoming a little emotional (just quietly between us – nothing dramatic). I had eyed off a wheelchair nearby and decided this was her mode of transport for the rest of the afternoon.

The meeting with the Radio-oncologist went well, except we were a little on edge because he was nearly 30mins late and we were fearful of missing the Neurosurgeon.

We got back to see the Neurosurgeon (wheelchair express at high speed) as he was about to walk out the door to the Operating Room. He wanted to spend more time with us, but was unable. However, we covered off on the things that we needed to and like always, he put us at ease and offered ongoing communication to us and specialists back home.

We said goodbye to our friend Isaac and left the hospital. It was now 7½ hours after arriving. We headed home and I had a short break, before collecting Gabi.

A little while later after making her dinner, I was back out the door to the Medical Centre for a 7:15pm appointment with the ENT to go over Ben’s X-ray results and discuss any possible future treatment Ben may need. When I was handing in some papers to the ladies at the International Department, I mentioned we were leaving and when they discovered why, one of the ladies actually recalled Maria coming in with a severe headache for her CT scan—the evening we ended up at hospital and began this journey.

Ben had a play date with his friend Faisal. He got home around 8:45pm and went straight to bed. I think we’re all running on empty at present!

In addition to trying to shake the remnants of this throat infection, a sore shoulder blade and tooth, I have a couple of other teeth that seem to be playing up. Hypochondria?

Mon 18-May-09 (uplift on a hot day)

It was a very hot day. Kathy took Maria as the removalists came in. They did a great job (I’ll wait to see how it arrives at the other end). The day went quite smoothly, although I seem to have damaged something in my right shoulder blade. Let’s hope it is temporary and passes.

After they left, Maria was brought home. I decided to grab a quick nap. I went into a two-hour deep sleep, even missing a call when the phone was sitting beside me.

Ben and Gabi returned around dinner time. Both were exhausted after being at the park in the afternoon to have cake for Yarden’s birthday. Her birthday is actually not for a while, but she insisted on having a party with Gabi present. Both feel asleep pretty quickly and seemed to have missed us (feedback from respective carers). We missed them both greatly. Not to have seen Gabi for 3½ days was a first (hasn’t even happened with Ben to date). Not seeing Ben for most of that time was equally challenging for us.

Sun 17-May-09 (Maria’s CT, long night)

After taking Ben for an X-ray first thing to look at his adenoids and any other potential obstruction issue, I got him home and sorted out before he headed off for a play date with Matthew while we went to the hospital for Maria’s CT scan.

There was a multi-casualty accident (requiring scans), which delayed Maria’s CT. We were told just before she went in that a line would be inserted into her arm and a contrast injected. As we hadn’t had prior notice to prepare Maria with ‘Emla’, we prayed fervently about minimal time and pain. When she finally went in, it only seemed a couple of minutes (it was less than five) when she returned. She said they didn’t need to insert a line—prayers answered.

Kathy was able to have Ben for another sleepover (I could see the excitement in Ben’s face when he passed in the evening to collect a few things). Gabi was also staying for another night. I told her on the phone that she’d need to send a photo to me of her, as I was beginning to forget what she looked like!

As I saw the massive task ahead trying to finish preparations for the removalists, I sent out a “mini SOS” SMS. Jo and Eileen came to the rescue, which was a huge blessing. They left quite late and I continued, until 3:15am. I had a short sleep to get things ready and Maria out the door before the removalists’ arrival.

Sat 16-May-09 (continue packing/sorting)

Discovered that Maria had a rough night and was feeling pretty unwell, suffering from severe nausea. We used this day to focus solely on preparing the house for uplift, including sorting and disposing of a lot of “stuff”. However, as Maria was feeling quite off and rested most of the day it was up to me to put my head down and get things done. Ben’s room was a massive effort and absorbed a lot of my time. I worked on the basement as well, including dismantling of Ben’s drum kits and a few other key items.

Gabi was supposed to return home but we agreed to another night at Yarden’s. This would also help me to finalise things. Ben was beside himself when he discovered this after being dropped off from his sleepover.

Fri 15-May-09 (sleepovers, dinner)

The kids have been looking forward to this day as Ben is having a sleepover at his great mate Matthew’s, while Gabi will sleep at Yarden’s—her “best friend in Israel”. She and Yarden independently state they are (or at least should be) twins. You can certainly see the likeness in mannerisms when they are together!

I went into the office to pack my belongings in preparation for our departure in the near future. I certainly felt a little emotional about the experience. I also realised I had never had a photo taken of me in my “new office” (we actually moved back in August). I’ll have to try and get one before we leave so I can show off the amazing view of the Mediterranean along Tel Aviv down to Jaffa (which my back was to – you’ll understand when you see the picture).

After returning home I frantically sorted/packed with Maria as we moved closer to the uplift (Monday). There is so much to do!

I took Maria out for dinner a really nice restaurant, called Segev. The food was great but it was becoming noisier as time passed. Maria was keen to go and I wanted the bill, but they kept bringing things for us to sample. Finally we got home and Maria crashed out pretty quickly—hopefully she rests as she’ll need it for tomorrow.

How is Ben?

Ben is coping reasonably well. Like all of us, he has his moments. He has a minor hurdle to face with minor ear/nose/throat issues (mentioned in previous blog entry), but he is otherwise healthy. He is growing into a very handsome boy (I'm biased). However, he will be having a haircut before we leave so he is presentable for school in Australia.

Ben is maturing and this has been more noticable to me in recent weeks. He is helping more, taking on a bit more of a support role. He was even heard one day during a play date explaining to a mate all about Maria's radiotherapy.

He received his school report early (today) and the results were an ongoing improvement from his previous report (which was a marked improvement from the previous year). Maria and I are very proud!

As you can see from the images below, Ben not only loves to draw from his imagination but 'Star Wars' is the theme on most occasions. He creates battle scenes with his Lego all the time and even manages to squeeze Star Wars into our everyday conversations.

I will give a brief description of each of Ben's drawings below. I am so amazed at how he is able to draw much of what he does with no reference to an image or toy to copy from (I'd be completely lost if put in the same position). Pay particular attention to the final image and commentary.

Image 1: Captain Rex (the guy in red) both with and without his helmet, accompanied by another Clone Trooper.

Image 2: Clone Troopers in battle against droids.

Image 3: This was a "Brain Wars" battle (the four of us -v- evil) during which apparently I swing up my light sabre to deflect a laser bullet but hit an overhead pipe causing a poisonous liquid to seep into Maria's head and give her a brain tumour. Ben explained that he didn't intend for it to look like I was somehow responsible for Maria's tumour. Some psychologists may view this differently.

Thu 14-May-09 (busy day)

Still fighting illness this morning, I got the kids off to school before heading to Jerusalem (over 90mins because of traffic). For sports today, Gabi started tennis and Ben surfing (his second year), so both were very excited.


On arrival in Jerusalem I went to a colleague's home to collect something from him (thanks Ben). From there I went to the Israel Museum to marvel at the scale model (1:50) of Jerusalem in the 2nd temple period (66 A.D.). It was warm in the 29 degree heat. I didn't have my 8MP camera with me, so I had to put the 3.2MP phone camera to work, again.


The key exhibit I wanted to see was the Shrine of the Book, holding the Dead Sea Scrolls and other items located at Qumran. Of particular interest to me was the Great Isaiah Scroll, written around 100 B.C., comprising of 66 chapters on a 7+ metre sewn together piece of parchment. Also of interest was the 10th-century Aleppo Codex, which is the oldest "complete" Bible in Hebrew.

I was so happy I went to the museum as I had put it off for so long. No photos permitted inside, so I only have exterior photos to share.

Not wanting to have Maria alone for too long I headed back home. Took me half the time (45mins) coming back.



Gabi went for a playdate while I collected Ben and prepared him for the Ear/Nose/Throat (ENT) specialist's appointment. It relates to some ongoing issues I want to resolve, especially prior to travel. He was very resistant because he has in his mind that he was to be operated on there and then. We had to wait around for a while to be seen. Ben will have an X-ray on Sunday morning to see whether his adenoids have grown back. He has some other issues regarding his nose and throat that may require intervention both now and in his adult life. The doctor was able to also able to provide some medications to assist with our upcoming travel.

Both kids are very excited about their separate sleepovers they will be having tomorrow evening.

I feel like I have picked up since this morning. The only issue at present is that me tooth is very sensitive to cold at the moment.

Wed 13-May-09 (Wedding Anniversary, health issues)

This is probably the earliest entry I've written in a while.

While the house was being cleaned today, I took Maria out for breakfast at Rishpon. It was nice, although I started to feel a little weak. From reading the blog heading, some may have been concerned that there were some further health issues for Maria. Well, you can relax. It is actually referring to me!

As the day progressed, I found myself feeling like my strep throat when "run down" was kicking in. During this time I had a dentist's appointment. After the needle, I found I could feel a little of the work being done. I put it down to the illness coming on (once had a similar experience). However, when the drilling commenced the cavity was larger than it appeared on the x-ray and the dentist realised this when he hit the nerve. I made a small noise and curled my toes. After he finished a comprehensive job, he told me that I would need root canal treatment. He hoped what he did may last a year or more, but it could flare tomorrow. He gave me his mobile number as he appreciates the limited time I have, should this teeth cause problems before our departure.

Fortunately our good friend and doctor, Harvey, was able to come by and examine my throat. By this evening I was able to get to the pharmacist and get the antibiotics. I need to travel to Jerusalem tomorrow, so I'm praying I pull up okay in the morning.

While chatting with Harvey, the kids went exploring by walking on a maze of wall tops from our house around part of the neighbourhood. I have explained to them that should they fall into someone's yard, then they become that person's property. Ben and Gabi have come across all types of security systems, but as you can see from the photo they are armed and ready (hard to see the handgun tucked in the back of Gabi's pants). As you can see, life in Israel is wearing off on them!

We had a lovely dinner (thanks Thresea) and yummy cupcakes (thanks Kathy C.).

Maria and I are planning to go out for dinner on Friday evening to celebrate while the kids have sleepovers. This will allow us to continue working on packing the house throughout Saturday.

My eyes are burning and straining, so I might head off to get some rest.

Tue 12-May-09 (An unexpected day at the hospital)

Maria had been feeling a little unwell in recent days with head pain on the right side (traditionally was all over or concentrated on the left), nausea, and a distended stomach to the point where it’s hard for her to wear anything around her waist, albeit she has lost 5kg since surgery. Her eyes have continued to water and she still sees black lines in her vision.

This morning Maria also noticed a couple of other issues, which we decided needed to be examined. We contacted Isaac and he arranged for us to see the Cancer Centre emergency doctor. Kathy came to our rescue, being able to care for Ben and Gabi at short notice as their school had a holiday today.

We had a fairly lengthy wait, but met another nice doctor (we haven’t encountered a bad one yet). She thoroughly examined Maria. It appears Maria is having some delayed effects from the therapy as well from the weeks of taking so many drugs with what can be nasty side effects. We worked through some potential solutions.

Tomorrow (Wed) is our wedding anniversary. It will be a quiet day apart from some more house tidying and me attending a follow-up dental appointment for a filling. Something I'm not dancing in the streets over.

Mon 11-May-09 (Ballet)

A day of sorting and disposing of items in preparation for our return to Australia in the near future. In the afternoon we all went to see Gabi’s last ballet lesson. By the end, she and the girls all looked exhausted. They put on a great performance.

Not everyone in attendance was as excited as the parents.

Her teachers Sharon...

and Liran...

honoured her at the end of the lesson and gave her a lovely gift. Gabi has really enjoyed her ballet and will miss both teachers. Maria and I were also blessed to have spent a bit of time getting to know Sharon outside of the ballet arena.

Sun 10-May-09 (Mother's Day)

Happy Mother’s Day to all those mums out there! The kids made beautiful cards for Maria and wanted to serve her breakfast in bed, so I cooked pancakes I had prepared the previous evening and we all ate in the bedroom with Maria having breakfast “in bed” with us on/around it.

Maria had a physio session and as always, enjoyed chatting with Diana. They have developed a really precious friendship in their time together.

Otherwise a reasonably quiet day, just hanging out at home.

It's not about us - an intro

I planned to go to bed after the previous entry, but had an urge to write this - not sure why.

Anyway, in an earlier blog entry titled "How is Troy?", I mentioned that I would include the occasional random entry either on: (a) one of us; (b) an issue; or (c) even just a bit of preaching from the heart. While typing my previous blog the phrase "It's not about us" was etched on my heart. So, that's what I'm going to call my faith sharing tid-bits..."It's not about us".

It's important to be completely honest upfront as that's a key factor in all relationships. I intend to scribe these future tid-bits to give you some more insight into; (a) what I believed and why; (b) spiritually where I've come from and where I am now; and (c) most importantly, to share what I consider to be the good news about my personal saviour, Jesus Christ (Yeshua Ha'Mashiach). Don't worry, I'm not here to force anything on you (that's another important aspect about relationship). I feel very strongly driven that I owe it to everyone to let you know how I cope with this situation we find ourselves in.

I know some of you out there reading this are from different faiths, mindsets, or are completely apathetic to what you may think are "religious ramblings". I can sense some of you starting to move uncomfortably in your seats about now. I remember cringing when I heard the word "religion" once upon a time. Anyway, I don't want to come across as arrogant but I've been there and done all that, from dabbling in all sorts of mysticism until my late teens when I self-diagnosed as an 'atheist'. This lasted until eight years ago when I discovered what I believe is "the truth".

I encourage y'all (picking up the local lingo from my American friends from the south) to hang in there and watch this space. I don't bite, won't make you sell your house, nor receive any commissions for this!

Sat 9-May-09 (Church day – our last in Israel?)

Church at Mark and Kathy’s started @ 1030 (half an hour later than usual). We still managed to arrive nearly half an hour late, but Maria managed to stay for a number of hours. She was exhausted by the time we got home. The kids stayed on and arrived home around 9:30pm.

It was a great, yet emotional time seeing our brothers and sisters in our congregation. We used it as an opportunity to say farewell to the as it is possible we won’t get back over the coming weeks.

It was a blessing to also farewell dear friends; Brian & Martha who head back to the US...

...and Ms Katherine (Kathy's mum).

I felt the presence of the Holy Spirit in an intense way when we (and our other brothers/sisters who are leaving Israel) were prayed over. I found tears pouring from me eyes uncontrollably without weeping (that came when I spoke briefly afterwards). Even Gabi (who was on my lap) was a bit unsure about what was happening to me. It’s the first time I think I’ve shed tears for quite a while, which was probably just after Maria’s diagnosis in mid-March.

I certainly don't recall ever getting a smile for the numerous massages I gave Maria (usually just abuse). Kathy, you have the magic touch.

Fri 8-May-09 (long breakfast)

As I hit the button to publish last night’s entry my laptop shut down. After a close examination I found the power pack appears to have blown.

I kept Ben home as he was a little better, having made his bed, got dressed and set the table for breakfast all by 0630. He was still a little weak so it was better to be safe as tomorrow we are all going to church, which will be held at our dear friends’ home followed by a long lunch.

While Ben and Maria rested, I went off and had breakfast with a dear brother, Mark. We ended up hanging out for three hours and did some serious sharing while having some great laughs—an overall awesome time of fellowship. Afterwards I went to try and find a replacement power pack for the laptop. Unfortunately being a Friday meant Dell was closed. Fortunately another dear brother was able to loan me one of his for the weekend (thanks Chris).

We had a reasonably good afternoon and relaxed evening. Gabi was overcome with stomach pains and nausea for a short time, but seemed to bounce back.

Maria continues to have some head pain, mainly on the right side, which I’ll be keeping an eye on.

Thu 7-May-09 (Radiotherapy over, long day, some sickness)

The day started with Ben complaining he felt too weak to set the table for breakfast, but was able to play imaginary Star Wars with his lego. I was a bit sceptical...the story continues a few paragraphs on.

Maria and I headed into the hospital for a blood test, followed by her final radiotherapy treatment. It's hard to imagine that her therapy began 6 weeks (and well over 1200km of travel to/from the hospital) ago.

(sign says Radiotherapy in Hebrew)

Maria was able to catch up with some of the other technicians.

We were also about to catch up with our two favourite nurses to get Maria's blood results and to thank them with more Max Brenner chocolates (we should buy shares!).
Albeit brief, we (especially Maria) are blessed to have had the opportunity to develop acquaintances/friendships with quite a few people.

Maria was able to keep her mask as a souvenir.

Isaac caught up with us for a drink while we had lunch to celebrate this milestone. Getting back to Ben briefly, while having lunch I received a call from the school to advise that Ben was complaining of body weakness (flu). I picked him up after dropping Maria home and he slept for a couple of hours (I apologised for doubting him earlier). In the meantime it was back to school to get Gabi, having afternoon tea together, then off to celebrate Lag BaOmer (as foreshadowed in the previous blog entry).

During the celebration I came home and Ben returned with me for the bonfire. I had the opportunity to have a couple of nice conversations, while both kids had lots of fun eating plenty of treats!


Maria has felt a bit nauseas and headed off to lay down to see if it will pass. The right side of her head has also given her some grief today. I'd better sign off to check on her and administer eye drops for her ongoing "watery eyes" issue. Let's pray these do not lead to anything serious.

While it's a huge relief to get through this therapy and not have the constant travel routine and traffic to battle, in a funny way I'll miss it, particularly the familiar faces around the hospital.

Latest family photo - taken today

For those of you who may have forgotten what we look like as a family unit(I'm usually the photographer and don't appear in many shots—which I prefer as I'm the least photogenic in our family), we took this on a tripod just before we left for the hospital today (6-May) so we could include it on our hand-made card for the radiotherapy staff to remember us by.

Wed 6-May-09 (Ben & Gabi's final hospital visit)

After some recent inspiration from a series of events, I booked to attend the Hillsong Men's Conference in Sydney on 6-7 November. I discovered this afternoon when checking the calendar of their school in Australia, that Gabi will have her athletics carnival on the 6th. Hopefully I'll have enough time to get to Sydney for the opening session that evening. In a worse case scenario I can follow Maria's lead [she donated her ticket for the Women's 'Colour' (Hillsong) Conference held in London last week to the church, with the request that it be given to someone who would otherwise be financially unable to do so].

This afternoon we took the kids with us for therapy. Ben was a little resistant, which is understandable as it can be boring. However, the kids are very good at occupying themselves and did so again tonight. Enroute to the Cancer Centre, we stopped at the Children's Hospital building around the corner of this masssive complex and took a few photos.


We arrived for Maria's treatment with a hand-made card and Max Brenner chocolates for the radiotherapy technicians, who have been nothing short of a huge blessing to us (this goes for all the staff of the Hospital that we have come into contact with). At this point, I should say for the benefit of my work colleagues who read the blog that I went shopping and bought these gifts for the ladies separately. They gave us a lovely Max Brenner hamper this morning—no way was I about to give up our chocolate!


We also had a photo with some of the ladies between patients. There are others who we hopefully will meet up again before we leave.

Tomorrow Maria has another blood test. We will squeeze in for her final radiotherapy session so we can be home at a reasonable time. It will also be helpful as the school is having a picnic dinner and bonfire to celebrate Lag BaOmer. I know that Maria has a few things that she'd like to ceremonially burn, but she won't be up to attending. What I recall from last year's celebration was that it was hazy across the country with all those bonfires.

Psalm 40

Psalm 40 (New Living Translation)

I was struck by this while reading in the hospital today (5-May). I just wanted to share it with you.

For the choir director: A psalm of David.
1 I waited patiently for the Lord to help me, and he turned to me and heard my cry.
2 He lifted me out of the pit of despair, out of the mud and the mire. He set my feet on solid ground and steadied me as I walked along.
3 He has given me a new song to sing, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see what he has done and be amazed. They will put their trust in the Lord.
4 Oh, the joys of those who trust the Lord, who have no confidence in the proud or in those who worship idols.
5 O Lord my God, you have performed many wonders for us. Your plans for us are too numerous to list. You have no equal. If I tried to recite all your wonderful deeds, I would never come to the end of them.
6 You take no delight in sacrifices or offerings. Now that you have made me listen, I finally understand you don’t require burnt offerings or sin offerings.
7 Then I said, “Look, I have come. As is written about me in the Scriptures:
8 I take joy in doing your will, my God, for your instructions are written on my heart.”
9 I have told all your people about your justice. I have not been afraid to speak out, as you, O Lord, well know.
10 I have not kept the good news of your justice hidden in my heart; I have talked about your faithfulness and saving power. I have told everyone in the great assembly of your unfailing love and faithfulness.
11 Lord, don’t hold back your tender mercies from me. Let your unfailing love and faithfulness always protect me.
12 For troubles surround me—too many to count! My sins pile up so high I can’t see my way out. They outnumber the hairs on my head. I have lost all courage.
13 Please, Lord, rescue me! Come quickly, Lord, and help me.
14 May those who try to destroy me be humiliated and put to shame. May those who take delight in my trouble be turned back in disgrace.
15 Let them be horrified by their shame, for they said, “Aha! We’ve got him now!”
16 But may all who search for you be filled with joy and gladness in you. May those who love your salvation repeatedly shout, “The Lord is great!”
17 As for me, since I am poor and needy, let the Lord keep me in his thoughts. You are my helper and my savior. O my God, do not delay.

Tue 5-May-09 (unexpected hospital visit, chemo over...for now)

Maria didn't emerge from her bedroom until mid-morning. Unfortunately it was not because she had been in hours of slumber. However, the good news is that she got some sleep.

I noticed Maria's eyes looked puffy, particularly the left one. I called Isaac (our Liaison Officer and friend) and he later called back to say that we should come to the hospital and have a doctor take a look. Her eyes have been watering over the last week and a bit sticky (like when you get conjunctivitis) but today was the first time they looked puffy and were a little more 'stuck'.

We had something to eat before heading off. In a space of 5-10 mins, we felt three sonic booms from aircraft above us. There has been quite a bit of military air traffic activity over the past couple of days. Haven't had much chance to catch up on news of late so not sure of the reasons.

While waiting for the doctor, I took a photo of Maria (Isaac in b/ground) taking her last dose of Temodal (chemotherapy) for now. In four weeks time she will commence a further six months (i.e. 6 x 28-day cycles) of chemo. Being orally administered gives us a lot of portability, especially as we work out our travel arrangements back to Australia.

Typically, Maria's eyes looked quite normal (as you can see by the abve photo) by the time we had arrived at the hospital. The doctor was not sure whether it was conjunctivitis or an effect from the radiation, so he prescribed antibiotic eye drops to treat former. If there is no improvement by Thursday (her final radio treatment day), then she is to be checked again to see what other steps need to be considered. Regardless, he didn't appear stressed about it and neither are we.

We were able to squeeze into radiotherapy. The ladies are so lovely and have been a huge blessing to us both. They (especially Tikva, whose name translates in English to 'hope') love when the kids come along. We plan to take in boxes of chocolates over the last couple of treatment days to thank the whole team.

While down at the shopping area collecting Maria's drops, I visited my local hangout (Aroma Cafe). I have become quite well known (almost a platinum frequent coffee-er) that a couple of the counter staff call me by name without me having to try and pronounce 'Troy" by rolling my "r" like an Israeli, as opposed to in my Aussie accent. They always speak to me in Hebrew, until I get stuck. I appreciate the opportunity to practice my pathetic grasp of the language, although my reading of it is improving (but not to the level where one would be excited about it).

Forgot to mention the other day that the person planning to purchase my VW Jetta was not able to, so it's back on the market. The only problem is that I had a couple of calls (could not see their numbers) just after the original agreement, who I turned them away without thinking there may be a potential complication. I'm praying that it will eventually go to a good home as for an older car it has served me well and is a bargain (as well as powerful!).

Tsoureki...for those of you not familiar

Tsoureki. What is it? Well, it is our favourite bread that we normally eat in Australia at Easter time. It is Greek (although many other countries have similar styles of bread). In Greece you can get it more frequently. It is a real challenge and art to produce a good tsoureki. It's well worth it when you find the right one.

To give a better description to our local friends, it is like Challah, but in my view is even better because it's sweeter (yes..that's right!). I love Challah, expecially because you can get it every week for Shabbat. I'll miss it extremely and will be trying to seek out a bakery back in Oz that makes it.

Maria's cousin Olga has kindly sent us loaves on a couple of occasions through the post, for which we are eternally grateful. Thanks Olga!

Mon 4-May-09 (Khamsin)

The winds picked up overnight and this morning were blowing heat and dust everywhere. The Khamsin is in town. The kids were frustrated because although it was in the 30s, they were stuck inside at school. The local cats that hang out at our place were either asleep or yawning each time I saw them. The air was a thick dusty haze and the drive back from the hospital this evening was quite eerie with the sun white like the moon and the sky a browny colour (it felt like life on Mars). This is not our first experience, but may be our last before we depart Israel for Australia...whenever that will be.

Friends of ours went to check out the desert today and got up close and personal with sandstorms. Apparently visibility was almost non-existent at times.

It's now 11pm and it has cooled substantially. We'll see what tomorrow brings.

Sun 3-May-09 (long evening at the hospital...again!)

Although the kids were up early as usual, we were very slow out of the blocks today. I had to take Ben to a doctor's appointment with our favourite doctor (Harvey). Enroute, the three of us (Maria stayed at home) called my mum to wish her a happy birthday.

After Ben's appointment (btw it's something I'm getting checked out - he is not ill), we went across the road to the yoghurt shop 'Lavan' (translates to 'white') for a delicious healthy frozen yoghurt.

After returning home I took Gabi over to play on the "Wii" with our dear friend Jo (long story behind this). It was greatly appreciated, especially as she (i.e. Jo) was flying out of the country only a few hours later.

We took the kids with us to the hospital after Maria's four day break because of machine upgrades. We arrived just before her 6:20pm timeslot to find the reception waiting area was packed. When checking in I was told that because of diagnostic upgrades, everything was moving at a slower pace. As Maria had seven in front of her, they estimated it would be an hour (I felt that was possible, but perhaps generous). We went for a walk to the pharmacy as we had to collect some medication.

When we got back (over half an hour later), Maria discovered it was "...still probably another hour." We ate, the kids and I played on the computers (and Ben played with his Lego also) while Maria read a little. The kids were great and really patient.

Maria checked on the technicians, acknowledging they must have had a long day. They told her the upgrades are to help the physicists/physicians with analysing data but it does not affect the therapy itself. Obviously no real benefit to the technicians while they work through this teething period.

We left the hospital at 8:30pm (3 hours after leaving home for the hospital) and got home around 9:00pm. It was far too long (hard on the kids), but seems to have been a trend for us over the past couple of weeks for one reason or another.

Maria has only two more days of chemotherapy (last dose on Tuesday), but not sure exactly when the radiotherapy will finish due to deferrals of a couple of sessions last week. We anticipate it will either be this Friday or Sunday. We should get the final week's adjusted schedule tomorrow.

Tomorrow morning will not be much fun trying to drag Gabi out of bed and into action. I know Ben will be on the move early as he has one of those types of body clocks.

Sat 2-May-09 (church @ home)

As Maria has not been able to attend our congregation, we decided to have church @ home. I led the worship (contemporary worship music by Toby Mac, Vineyard, etc.), delivered a couple of mini-sermons, the kids read the relevant passages of scripture and we had communion.

It was the first time I had done this so it was uplifting, especially as the kids (who were initially resistant to the idea) really got into the fun of it. It was also good practice for when we return home as it will probably be some time before Maria will be in a position to attend church.

In response to the question someone may pose that what we did was not really church, I would offer the following. The first century Christian church operated in a home environment, where "...they were continually devoting themselves to the apostles' teaching and to fellowship, to the breaking of bread and to prayer." There are many more references of this through the Bible. In our case we were there, the Holy Spirit was with us, and the Lord wants us to reach out and glorify Him, not just turn up to a building.

Having said the above, it is important to qualify the above by saying that I am also a strong advocate for being part of a congregation/church for those who want to be there to worship God and fellowship with one another, rather than just to be seen going to church or attending because of some type of guilt. I want people to understand that for me, church is not about a bricks and mortar man-made construction, but rather, "...where two or three come together in my name, there am I (Christ) with them." (Matthew 18:20)

Someone may also question whether I am qualified to deliver communion. Well, from my understanding of the Bible, it is silent on this point. Before providing a specific answer to the question, it is important to understand that communion is a time of: reflecting and submitting to God; coming before Him with a humble heart to seek forgiveness for our sins; seeking a deeper relationship with Him; and remembering what Jesus did for each of us on the cross in Calvary nearly 2000 years ago to give us the opportunity to have eternal life.

Having given that background, I know my next comment will be controversial, but here it goes... In my view, 'communion' could be given by anyone (even a non-believer) because not only is the Bible silent on this topic, but the focus should nevertheless be on how the person partaking in communion receives it (that's between them and God). This is clearly supported biblically in 1st Corinthians 27-30

For what it's worth, prior to giving communion I presented a brief message (for the children) after which I broke and served bread (challah), poured and served grape juice, while Ben read 1st Corinthians 11:23-26. We all got gained a lot out from the experience. Should I be wrong in my assessment of communion, then I'm sure the Lord will reveal this to us in His just and loving way.

Thu 30-Apr-09 (slept in, blood test, meeting)

As yesterday was a holiday for the kids, I deactivated my daily alarm. Unfortunately I forgot to reactivate it. After my usual 4am wake-up, I went back into a deep sleep. I was awoken by an alarm, which happened to be the one (of many) reminding me of something (on this occasion that Maria was due her first pills for the day). The time was 8am, which is the start of school. Ben was awake, playing with Lego on his bed. Gabi was fast asleep. When I woke her and explained the situation, she 'freaked out'. To give you a little insight into Gabi, she does not like attention drawn to her (apart from at home). So the idea of turning up late and walking into class is a major phobia for her. Believe me, as we've had a previous experience. We did manage to get sorted, have breakfast and be at school (3min drive) by 8:30. All was well.

There was no radiotherapy today as the machines are being upgraded. We'll get back into it on Sunday for Maria's final week. However, we still went into the hospital today for Maria's final blood test for this treatment cycle, although she'll probably have another as part of her fitness to travel assessment in the near future. The results were good, yet again. The event was also pain free. Praise God!

After the meeting, our liaison officer (Isaac) told us he was able to arrange for our meeting with the Head of Radio-oncology to save us coming in on Sunday (as Maria's treatment is in the evening). That meeting also seemed to go well. He was certainly happy with how Maria presented, considering she has come down to less than half her steroid dose without any ill effects.

While waiting for the blood results we had to go to the pharmacy to purchase some items, including one remaining box of chemotherapy (long story), which contains only five capsules. When the pharmacist looked up the price, he nearly fell over. Our local credit card seized up (probably with the shock of it all), but our trusty AMEX came to the rescue!

This evening we were supplied with a delicious fresh meal (thanks Eileen). As I mentioned in a thank-you email, Ben (who always claims to be vegetarian, but in his defence is not a big meat eater unless it is a hamburger - especially McDonalds) said it was, “…the best chicken I’ve EVER tasted.”

As it is now just after midnight, being the first day of the new month, I'll sign off with the Greek saying, "Kalo Mina." (literally, "good month").

How is Troy?

After publishing this entry, I had to come back into it for "editing" as I saw the Bible verse of the day on the blog's front page is Psalm 55:22 (very apt in terms of casting our burdens on the Lord). Now back to the text...

As time goes on, you will see random entries focusing perhaps on one of us, an issue, or even just a bit of preaching from the heart.

Trying to address the subject of how I am without entering into a thesis could be challenging. Luckily I've found that where I have developed most in character over the past two months is in 'brevity' and 'assertiveness'. Let's see how I go putting the former into practice!

I have been off work since Maria had her operation on 25-Feb, having only been able to visit the office a handful of times for short periods. The office is ticking along (probably better than when I left it) and for that I'm grateful (thanks Trish and team). I sometimes feel guilty for not getting into the office more often, but I am active from morning until late evening with the full-time job of caring for Maria and the kids. I thought my current job was challenging...if I'd stayed on in Israel and returned to work, I feel this experience is increasing my confidence to face any work challenge without stress (not that my current role is without stress).

Although I've always tried to be an active parent, being the kids' "primary" carer has given me a greater appreciation of the awesome job Maria has done with our beautiful kids.

Psychologically I'm fine. I would however be happy to swap places with Maria in the blink of an eye (for her sake, not mine), or at least take on her physical pain.

The prayer and practical support helps lighten the load. I will sorely miss the people we have come to know and love in this land. I'm hopeful some of these relationships will continue even with such a distance that will separate us. In today's e-communication environment, there is little excuse for not remaining in contact.

Physically, I won't deny that I am exhausted. I haven't slept through a night since Maria fell ill. I think it's catching up as I collapsed on the lounge for a 5min break this afternoon, but ended up napping for well over an hour. This is the first time I've napped since before Maria fell ill. The kids were a real blessing by occupying themselves, albeit Gabi woke me a handful of times to get my permission to do certain things...trying to catch me off-guard!

I also wanted to take this opportunity to thank my employer, who will remain anonymous (I'm conscious of not mixing private and work matters over the Web). I want to thank them for supporting my existing leave arrangements and more importantly the financial support associated with Maria's treatment as foreigners are naturally managed as private patients. Unfortunately the circumstances were such that Maria could not receive the treatment necessary in Australia at that critical time a few weeks ago.

Speaking of exhaustion, I need to get some sleep so I can face another day that "...the Lord has made." As the lyrics continue, "We will rejoice and be glad in it".

Wed 29-Apr-09 (Israeli Independence Day)

As mentioned in the previous entry, today was a holiday to celebrate Yom HaAtzma'ut (Israeli Independence Day). The kids and I went to a BBQ at "Dr Harvey's" home. We really enjoyed it. It certainly wasn't short of food or company, especially Aussies!

It was quite warm so the kids had a swim.

We even had a doggy bag of meat, salad and very tasty Anzac biscuits to take home for Maria (thanks Harvey & Loretta).

I like how the Israelis are passionate about their country and overtly display this by flying flags (of all sizes) on cars, houses, buildings...you name it! In the lead-up, there are people at many intersections selling flags to attach to your vehicles. While driving to the hospital I took a few "snappies" to give you a very small glimpse of what it's like.

I had someone come later this afternoon to look at my car and agreed on-the-spot to purchase it. We have been so blessed to have both our cars sold with minimal fuss. We hope the new owners of both cars will have as much fun with them as we have.